Possible Complication

WTF WTF WTF WTF!

I seriously feel like I will NEVER be able to get one shred of something I want let alone NEED!

We knew this was a possibility, but I was really holding out a lot of hope that it would not happen.

Dh was laid off from his job on Friday. We have 6 weeks of banked insurance, but after that nothing unless he is brought back to work. ((XX fingers he's brought back in 6 weeksXX)) I am not really holding my breath on it happening for a good 6 months or more though.

So where does this leave my WLS journey? Well up in the air pretty much.

I have a tiny glimmer of hope in that the doctor might try and push the surgery through before the insurance runs out, but I am certainly not holding my breath on that happening for me. I don't think I am that lucky to have that happen to me.

So I am unsure on how to approach this. Do I go to my first appointment next Thursday and gather the information and recommendations even though I might not be able to get started let alone done for over a year or more. Or do I just wait for a more opportune time to present itself?

Making this decision is extremely difficult to do. If you've ever thought about it, you may know what I mean. Possibly still wondering if it is right for you and contemplating all of the risks and complications you could possibly have let alone knowing you will forever have a restricted diet and how irreversible the whole thing is. It's life changing on more than one level.

I made this grueling decision after years of thinking, discussing, and reseaching, let alone a lot of soul searching. Now I am faced with having the rug pulled out from under me. This completely and utterly SUCKS!!!

Knowing you are an emotional eater is one thing but trying to combat it while dieting is ever harder. No I have not been doing well.
As it is I always do better when my husband isn't here, LOL. He's my enabler and he knows it. He's trying to get on the diet train with me, but I still catch him with junk food that he's snuck into the house. Now he'll be home everyday he isn't out looking for a job, enabling me and adding to the emotional eating impulses which I am very weak at staying away from right now. I am too vulnerable.

Gaaaaaaaaaaah!

Barely started and I've already hit a wall! How do I get past this and how do I keep going? How can I keep waiting and putting my life on hold?!

Sigh.

I did buy some multi vitamins and vitamin B complexes online that should be arriving here soon before this happened. I'm hoping it will help give me some of the energy I have lost and can not seem to find.

My BBT temping charts still don't look anywhere near normal so hopefully some more healthy vitamins will help. I need to get hormonally and physically inline/healthy.

I am just frustrated beyond belief. I am frustrated with finances, the economy, and more. It's true nothing is ever "easy", LOL.