My Body is in ONEderland!

I hit ONEderland, before the end of the year and WHILE pregnant!



At one point I didn't think it was possible and then when I hit 201 a few days ago and then 200 yesterday I got my hopes up for today and sure enough the scale read below 200!

I have NOT seen a 1 at the beginning of my weight since before high school!!!
Last night before bed I weighed myself and was kind of shocked to see the scale read 200.6 BEFORE BED. I dreamt all night long about waking up and stepping on the scale in the morning and seeing the 199, but I also got scared to step on the scale thinking "With my luck my weight will have stayed the same or gone up." I thought for sure that would happen to me so I was scared to step on the scale and be disappointed.

Nope, I stepped on it and got a 199.8. I was happy! Then I went and opened some mail and greeted family and got my camera so I could document my scale victory and when I stepped on the scale again, not once but several time to double and triple check what I was seeing, I was met with the 199.4 lbs!

I am now only 24lbs away from my DH's weight! I have NEVER been this close to his weight before. N-E-V-E-R!!!

Of course I am pregnant so unfortunately my clothes have not changed much. I probably could easily fit into a size 16 now if it wasn't for the baby bump, LOL At the beginning of December I switched to maternity pants, but then dropped like 5-6 lbs in one week and the maternity pants got too big so I went back into my regular jeans. Since getting my BFP I've lost an additional 11lbs I went up on the scales for a bit though and then lost it all and then some without trying. Sticking to my proteins and normal eating. Morning sickness hasn't been too bad. Vomiting has been kept to a minimum but eating has been more difficult. Some days I think I eat too much but those are the days I tend to seem to lose more on the scale, so it's weird.

My flexible goal was to reach 199.8 before Jan 1st. I did that and if I sadly go up on the scale I am a-okay with that because I know baby has to grow and it will cause me to gain weight.

In previous pregnancies I only gained 10-15lbs after I lost a lot in the first trimester. By the end of my pregnancy I am usually lighter than my lowest pre-pregnancy weight. Then I somehow end up gaining it all back and then some while I am breastfeeding! Of course this time I have a much smaller stomach so we'll see how that all turns out.

Ok, so I am long winded. If you made it this far, :D thank you!

Heartbeat, and 2 pounds away!

I turned 10 weeks today. Since I've lost 125lbs I thought we give it a shot at finding the baby's heart beat. It's been my Christmas wish to hear it for Christmas/by Christmas.

However I wasn't sure I'd be able to find it since I could be 9wks 4 days - 10wks along. I don't know when I conceived at all and I suspect I am not as far along as I think I am and my EDD is actually July 23 and not July 21.

Either way, I had dh pull out the doppler after midnight just to "see" if we could find it and I fully expected we wouldn't and I would just try again around Christmas Day instead.

Well, after a little search we heard it clear as day. Nice, FAST, and strong. I am much more relieved now, but I still don't feel "safe". Maybe once I finally feel baby start moving, LOL

I swear pregnancy is so much more stressful after a miscarriage!

I'm also just 2 pounds away from seeing 199 on the scale now. It's weird how the closer I get the more scared I am because I feel like I shouldn't get that low, and yet I am not trying to get that low. This morning sickness has really killed a lot of my appetite and the vomiting here and there don't help either.

I seem to have slowed down for the most part though. I seem to only be losing a pound a week right now and some times nothing at all for a while. I am fairly certain things will start really slowing down or stopping once I hit January when I'll start entering the 2nd trimester.

Such mixed feelings though. While I'd "like" to see 199 on the scale, part of me wonders if it's "okay" to get that low. I already don't feel like I am eating enough and I am not trying to eat less it seriously is this damn morning sickness. UGH!

I am just happy to have heard the baby's heartbeat finally.

They're too Tight

UGH!

They "fit" technically, but they are getting snug and tight now. I'll probably move up a size in jeans until I truly need my new maternity pants, but it's weird to have lost 5 lbs and have my clothes feel tight on me instead of loose. That's not right!

Morning sickness has turned into a bit of a puke fest lately but thankfully my magic drink still works! Yep, Fresca still calms my tummy and makes my yuckies go away. It's weird and I don't know how or why but Fresca works for me! I'd bet money on the fact that it has a lot of grapefruit juice in it. Perhaps it is the citric acid. I don't really know, but I don't quetion it and I will just keep it on hand for when I feel really horrible.

The most difficult part of this all is not truly knowing if some of my tummy feelings are from the surgery or if it is from the pregnancy. I suppose it's about 50/50 at this point but it really does suck.

Still Losing Weight!

I have mixed feelings on this too. On one hand I'm losing weight! But on the other hand . . .should I be losing weight?!

I kind of like the idea of possibly getting below 200 lbs before the end of the year, but then I question if I am eating enough for me and baby. I mean I know the baby takes what the baby needs but I can't eat like I usually do in pregnancy.

There is also the little issue of morning sickness too. Thankfully I am not , apparently that would be more of an issue with my doctors. But I am not puking I am just nauseous whenever I eat something or I will get violently ill. Headaches, painful sickness in my tummy and I just want to curl up and die. And yet. . .and yet I continue to eat for the sake of the baby and for the sake of staying alive.

My eating regimn usually starts out with a morning Atkin's protein shake. Depending on the day it can go down easily or it can take 2-3 hours to sip down just 11 oz with every swallow making me as nauseous as the last.

After I choke down my shake then I can usually have regular food. However breads don't seem to like me lately. Flour tortillas, rolls, and the homemade donuts Dh made just found their way out of me after I ate them. Some proteins don't sit well with me anymore either. I can still do egg salad and the taco salad I had from taco bell the other night, while it took me 3 hours to eat, it actually did well.

Most of the time I have to get my digestion really going to be able to eat any given full meal. But it just gets so painful and I am so nauseous that after a few bites I give up on eating the rest.

I think baby is doing well but I can't be 100% certain. I am still worried about miscarrying and I really do hope that by Christmas I will be able to find baby's HB with the doppler. It would be the best present this season and I will stop worrying. I will be just around 10 weeks by then. If not then, then hopefully the week after. I know the earliest I've been able to find baby's HB was around 11 weeks, but I was also 80lbs heavier too. So who knows . . .?!

I was able to go to the Salvation Army and buy 3 pairs of maternity jeans. Still shocked the 3X jeans were too big and the XL jeans were the "right size", LOL. I am not used to that. I also found a maternity shirt and I got 2 pairs of jeans for now and after baby. One was a size 16 and it fit well! Yay!

I am kicking myself NOW for having passed up some great fitting maternity capri's because it totally escaped me that I would be pregnant during the summer! D'oh! For some reason I thought "I won't need those. I'll be too cold!" UGH! It's difficult shopping for the future if you forget what the weather will be like 6-7 months from now, LOL I'm hoping that maybe tomorrow I'll be able to find them still on the rack as we have to go back for some things we forgot.

Any ways, so far so good. Surprised that I am still losing weight, and yet NOT surprised at the same time. Lower back killing me, boobs killing me, and I am freakin' tired all the time and I have a crap load of things to do in the coming week. {{{sigh}}}

So watch my tickers and see if I make it to 199 before the end of the year and watch my baby virtually grow in the other ticker. :)