What's Happening!?

Not much, really.



I still have pain, but my energy has returned since being home and being able to actually sleep longer than 2 hours stretches.

For TMI info either read or skip:

::AF or TOM- how ever you identify your monthly visitor - showed up early as I suspected it would, on Tuesday. It been a light, annoying flow and from my understanding that is normal. The down side is that it will probably last longer. The other down side is that I am having to find unique ways to handle it, since I can not bend enough to wipe my own ass yet!



Thanksfully, someone at the support group I went to before surgery, filled me and others in on this little potential problem and told us how she dealt with it. I won't tell you, since it is gross. However at the hospital it was easier to deal with as there was a chair directly across from my toilet (Weird?! Yeah, I know.). Now you might be wondering how this comes into play, but first let me tell you that my DH was with me the day they removed the catheter, and I was bound and determined to pee on my own so I wouldn't need the catheter placed again. So while DH was there he helped me wipe. But of course he had to leave and return to wiping baby butts at home and not mommy butts at the hospital.



So once Dh left I was left to my own accords. At first I thought about calling a nurse in to help me, but that was going to be my absolute last resort, and believe you me I seriously dreaded and feared going #2!!! Thankfully my bowels were clear enough from the liquid diet that I did not do #2 until I was finally home. (told you TMI)



Ok Dh's gone and now I have to figure this thing out myself without causing so much pain I pass out. I attempted like 2-3 time to wipe myself, by hand with TP of course, and it BARELY did the trick. That's when I noticed the chair in front of me and the several extra towels I had laying around. So I gathered the extra towels and one covered the chair and the other1-2 were kind of twisted together in a log type form so when I was done urinating I justgot up, spun around a little and sat on the towels. It dried me enough so I didn't have urine running down my legs and that's all I cared about. I mean HELL at least I didn't have some stranger wiping my ass for me.



I informed my 2 other Sleeve Sisters and they were grateful for my tip. ;) Of course at home I don't have a big enough bathroom for a chair and towels like that, so I came up with other means.



Ok, so AF/TOM is here and I can't wipe my own ass still. And can I just say my husband is a very wonderful, wonderful, loving, wonderful man! He's really helped me through these road bumps as I figure things out for myself. Thankfully I'm told it will be lighter than normal, which will be more benficial, however it will last longer. I guess I got to take the good with the bad.::

TMI Over and Out

As for weight loss. . .well I am going to be one of those who guages it from my highest weight and not from my surgery weight or anything like that. I am doing this because my highest weight was on January 1st and that was the day I decided to do something about it. At first I told myself I would try Atkin's "ONE MORE TIME" and if it didn't work then I would go the WLS route. 2-3 weeks into my Atkin's diet I KNEW I couldn't keep the diet up like I had once done before. My weight was too depressing to me and eating was my only comfort. I tried and tried but my DH is so much of and enabler and saboture that I found things impossible as I felt alone in my quest.

So once I KNEW that WLS was the option for me, I did my research and made my first call to a Bariatric center, just to get a PCP referral because I knew that it would be quicker to get WLS that way. Why? Because they want the money just as much as the Bariatric centers, and I was right. 2 months and 3 weeks later I got the surgery I wanted.

So my journey really began on January 1st not April 24th. April 24th is the day I finally received my tool, but my struggle started long before that and to reach a high weight, no matter where it is, and to get through it and lose the weight is a success.

So My highest weight was 326 sugery day I was down to 306.6. This morning my scales told me I am now below 300!! I am 298 and I haven't seen that weight since August 2008 after my miscarriage. After my MC I just kept gaining weight to hide my disappointment, sadness, and anger. All that did was hurt me more and now I have pushed through and conquered my scale.

I know I will still have to deal with the inner "deamons" but this all in the right direction for the first time in my life I am not worried about the scales going up. It's a relief in many, many ways.

This is by far no way "an easy way out" and yet at the same time it is.

It took me 5 years to come to this decision, and in those 5 years I did a 180º in my preceived notions of WLS patients/people until I started meeting them in person. I saw the changes in them and their happiness and I envied them. Still I tried to do it the "old fashioned way" with diet and exercise, which I kept failing at.

Jealousy took over. I wanted to lose weight fast too, but I was in no way ready to re arrange my body for it. Then I learned about the VSG and knew my time had finally come to have my WLS.

The emotional roller coaster, financial roller coaster and now the post-op pain roller coaster is in no way EASY. This has been a very difficult 3 months. Now the real work begins with my complete lifestyle change and body change. I constantly wonder how much weight I will lose. I wonder if I will reach my goal of 150 or will my body say "NO" and just keep losing until it feels comfortable?

I look at my family, family and am stunned to think I could potentially be smaller than my sisters one day. Something that has NEVER, EVER happened before. I could potentially borrow clothes from them and them from me! Again, never, ever, happened before! It's all mind boggling to me, and still I wonder if I will be one of those that stalls before I even get below 200.

I keep telling my kids I could potentially be a lot smaller by Christmas. I know it could be sooner but I am trying to be cautious too. I figure 9 months should be enough time. But if not, then oh well.

Quick Update

I finally got home today and I have to day that those who've said that this is easier than a c/s ust have had very good surgeons. :-\ And I am jealous of anyone who were in and out within 1-2 days. I am still extremely spre and tired. :(

I found out I was the second official sleeve surgery that has been done at this hospital. Of my 2 other friends who had the sleeve the same day as me, I probably had it the easiest. The one had some complications to where they thought they might have to open her up again. She was given 2-3 blood transfusions before her hemoglobin stabilized. She'll still be in the hospital until either tomorrow or Wednesday.

Knowing the pain I was in and having seen other people's video's and reading other people's experiences I kind of wish I would have gone to someone with more experience. But oh well, all is done and over with now.

My new tummy (Steve the Sleeve) seems to like warm liquids over cold ones right now.

I have a lot more detail, but I am still in pain and recovering. Wanted to say that I am alive and well.

My highest weight was 326. Day of surgery I was 306 (naked). When I got home and weighed myself fully clothed and bandaged I was already down to 304 so I am sure there is another pound or two I could remove for clothing in there somewhere.

Either way I am finally on the losers bench!

Only Hours To Go

At 4:30am I head off to the hospital for pre-op testing and prep. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! This time tomorrow I'll be hopefully recovering.

I'm starting to get a little scared and nervous about this whole thing and am wondering why the hell I am doing this to myself. I really do hope this will work for me. I want this to be worth all of the financial strain, headaches, nasty liquid foods, and stress I've endured to get to this point, YK?!

I guess the only thing I am really worried about is actually making it through this thing alive and sleeved. Of course I won't if I will until I wake up from it all.

In an hour we'll be leaving to drop the kids off at their friend's homes and then Dh and I will have a night on the town.

And, yet, all through this I am still just as excited as ever. Go figure!

WTH Noooow??!!

Crap, crap, crap, crap, crap!!!

Please, please, please, please, please don't let this ruin things for me!

This evening around 5pm I started getting a pain around my right side under my breast, so I thought it was the bra doing it, or maybe a pimple forming, so I took my bra off and check and nothing is there . . .but pain!

Groan :(

I have a 19mo, and I nursed him . . .well I still nurse him from time to time, but have been weaning him here and there; but my thinking is that this pain is associated with it. I'm thinking it's a plugged duct or something. I know he hasn't nursed on that side for a LOOOONG time so I am confused as to why it would happen now. I'm following the diet plan and usually fatty foods causes plugs which is why I am confused! Unless my husband if force feeding me while I sleep I don't know what's happening.

My concern is that it could turn into a breast infection. I had a LOT of breast infection for the first 8 months of Evan's life in my right breast so this isn't unusual for this breast. Still I haven't had one for almost a year now. I'm afraid if it does turn into one then I might be canceled.

Now, it could also just be a pulled muscle, although I don't know how I would have done that. I wasn't doing anything when it started becoming painful. I keep massaging the area and had my son nurse on that side to see if it would help (it didn't).

I know extra rest can help so maybe I'll go to bed early and that will help. I just hope I don't wake up to more pain and what not Ugh, that would SOOOO not be good. :(

I just hope this small pain stays small or goes away.

The torture I endure.

I have about 27½ hr's from now until I head to the hospital for prep, blood work, and then surgery.

Still all day today my family tortures me with mouth watering smells of grilled cheese and fresh baking cinnamon rolls. WTH is wrong with my husband!!

Well ok, the kids made the grilled cheese without asking, but DH made the cinnamon rolls. He claims they were committing suicide and he couldn't stop them. Karma got him though, since the oven seems to not be working right, the rolls came out brown on the outside and raw on the inside. Ha! Ha!

Tomorrow after we drop the kids off to their friends for the duration of the surgery, we plan on going out to the movies, since this will be they only time since I can remember where we can go out and literally relax and not worry about not rushing home! We're planning on seeing "I Love You Man". But I am sure the smell of the theater foods will just be divine!
*sinff* ahhhhhhhhhh!

All while I have to drink is this really crappy protein water. I tried a sip today and it's just really, really gross. Maybe I'll just have water. Either way, I've gone to the movies without popcorn and soda/pop so it shouldn't be a big deal. Just knowing I don't have to be home at any specific time is reward enough for me!

Still I am sure that tomorrow will be filled with more grilled cheese smells and of course another wonderful I will again not be able to partake in. For those who don't have kids at home to torture you with smells like this. . .I hate you!

Aw, who am I kidding?! I love my kids! I'll miss them.

2 Days Left!

One day left of "food", if you can call it that. LOL

I have one day left of the liquid food, and then Thursday I have to drink this Wildberry Protein Drink all day long. There is 15g of protein in every serving, which is pretty cool. It's what I'll get to drink while at the movies (a sarcastic - yay me.)

Everyone keeps asking if I am getting nervous yet, and really I am not. I'm more excited than nervous. I am sure I'll start getting more butterflies as 4:30a, Friday approaches. I also think that all of the wonderful blogs, message boards, support groups, and WLS friends have really helped me to feel prepared.

My dreams have always been positive. In my dreams I come out of the surgery a-okay. My incisions are perfect and only slightly painless and in my dreams I get out of the hospital early.

Now if only the last part were TRUE. Like I've said before the only downside to being one of the first to have this surgery at this hospital, is that they haven't fully caught up. They have no VSG guidelines for food, or post-op care, it's all Gastric Bypass info. This includes hospital stays. I know one VSG vlog friend went in on the 14th and was out by the 15th.

Me?

Well, the hospital doesn't discharge on Sundays, so I very well may be trapped there until Monady. UGH! Sooo, not what I wanted. I am fairly certain I will be using my media player on Sunday. I'll also probably have DH bring the kids by to the waiting room where they can visit me since the hospital only allows 2 visitors at a time, which would not work for us.

But so far, No, I am NOT nervous . . .YET! I do still have the regular worries. With 7 kids I worry a lot about living through the surgery. I worry about whether or not I forgot to tell the doctors everything they need to know that MIGHT cause a complication. I worry about complications. I worry about my kids not being a burden on the ones looking after them for practically a whole day. I'm a worrier.

I usually keep the worries to a very quiet mumble in the back of my head while I am doing the happy dance in the livingroom with the kids, LOL But they are still there, none the less.

Even still, I am very excited!

Vlog Updates

I Knew It Was Too Good To Be True . . .

I just knew there would be some snag that would make this surgery more complicated than it needed to be. I also figured it would be wound up in insurance too. I called Monday to double check on the COBRA Stimulus Plan since I was told that it would go into effect on April 17th, Friday.

Stupid me thought things would just happen. Of course things aren't that simple. Why would they be. No, On the 17th they sent paperwork instead. Paperwork which I have not received yet but expect to by Tuesday (crossing fingers). We have to fill out this paperwork stating that no one else really wants to be insured too (Um yeah it's my husband and 7 kids. We can't afford that if we wanted to!!) and they have to sign it too. Then I can not be on medicare which apparently I am according to the hospital, for some reason, so we have to make sure I am removed from that, and then they check to see if I QUALIFY for the COBRA stimulus plan! WTF??!!!

I don't get why I would need to "qualify"! We have no job, we paid nearly $600 with the understanding that on April 17th it would retro-actively cover me until July 4th, and now I have to go through paperwork and HOPE to QUALIFY?!?!

The coverage was going to cover my post-op care, I can not deal with more over-lapping of insurance and confusion and stress on whether or not I will be covered after my surgery! Thankfully I KNOW I will be covered for the surgery, insurance already told me that if I go in on the 24th I will be covered for everything until I am released, which is good to know, but I was threatened with cancellation if I did not have coverage for post-op care, so I have 3 days to stress and make tons of calls to make sure this all goes through.

I asked what I needed to "qualify" and the lady just basically told me to "fill the paperwork out and return it". That fucking does NOT help me! I need to know NOW not tomorrow! As it was it took 4 hours just to get through to a live person. Everytime I called before that I got a message saying their "lines were busy and to try again later." To me that is NOT a good sign. :(

I am extremely worried I won't be covered post-operatively now. We can not afford the $108 a WEEK to cover me, especially when unemployment is only giving us $1400 a month and rent is $930 and we have 7 kids to take care of then there is utilities and basic essentials.

Needless to say my excitement bubble has burst and I am again fretting over insurance. I have NO idea what to do or where to go from here. I suppose that if I am covered by medicare then maybe they'll pay for the follow-up care. Right now though, I just don't know. ((sigh))

Only 4 days left, now!!!

4 Days left and really only 3 days left on the liquid diet. The day before surgery I have to drink only one thing. It's this berry fruit drink. I have 7 packets of them to last all day and then after midnight I can't have anything by mouth. I also can't take my meds on Thursday either.

The kids will be off to their friends homes on Thursday night to spend the night, and Dh and I have decided to take the opportunity to go out alone by ourselves to the movies. It will be so NICE to not feel rushed to get home so we don't have to pay the sitter extra or something. I've never had that kind of "date" where I didn't feel rushed!

It will be odd to be going to the movies and smell all of that glorious popcorn and sneak my flavored water in instead, but I've done movies without popcorn before (usually only had money for the movie then, which will be pretty much the case this time too).

I think I am more excited about the date than I am about the surgery!! Although my excitement and nervousness will probably keep me up all night long as it is.

I have clothes washed, bought new undies and socks, I finally found a sleeping mask, and I have my other essentials ready too. All of my basics are already packed in the complimentary bag I received from the bariatric center/hospital, which is perfect, IMHO, for me.

These 4 days to me feel like only 3 days since the day before will be a blur I just know it.

My excitement is bubbling over and that seems so weird knowing I will be sliced and diced in just 4 days from now, LOL I will be in pain and in a hospital which I HATE hospitals. I guess I am excited to be going because I want to go and have this done, LOL. It's the one thing I have done for myself and no one else really. I can still hardly believe I will be getting this done in just 4 days.

This Time Next Week . . .

I'll be in my hospital room recovering from my Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy!!

I love that I can say that! Officially only 6 days left until my surgery now.

Yes, I am dorky enough and excited enough to post something this mundane, but I am just that excited!

I'll be on the road to no longer being

I HATE Scales!!!

Why is it I can not find a scale that will give me the same fucking weight two or three times in a row?!

I woke up and did the daily routine and then weighed myself. The scale said 309.8! "WooHoo!" I thought, and then the thought turned to, "Wow did I just read that right?" So I stepped on the scale again only this time the scale read 311.4 ARGH!!!!! So I stepped on it yet again and got a reading of 310.2 WTF!!! So I stepped on it yet AGAIN and it said 310.2 again.

Wah!! Where did the 309.8 go?? I want that number back!!

If I could afford it I'd get the tried and true doctor's scale where you have to manually move the weights to get the bar to balance. Those are the most accurate, and unless someone is giving them away on FreeCycle, I'll probably never own one.

Sure I could get an analog scale but even the ones I used to have were never 100% accurate either.

Why, oh why didn't I just take the first scale reading? Now I have to decide how much I weigh today and I like being honest so I suppose I'll have to take the 310.2 even though it's only a .2 loss. I'd much rather have the .6 loss and see the 309 on my charts. :(

Stupid "Made in China" products.

A few more tries and I get 311.6, 311.8, and 310.6

9 Days away from surgery!!!!!!

I'm still waiting for something to stop this whole thing. A call from insurance or the Bariatric Center with some problem or another telling me they have to cancel the surgery or something. I certainly hope that doesn't happen but that is always in the back on my head haunting me, until I am actually being wheeled into the OR.

So, I've been on the liquid diet (LD) for about a week now. I've been tracking my calories on TheDailyPlate.com The LD kit food only has around 700 calories in it. Some of the extra foods I am allowed to add bring me up to around 800-1000 calories depending on what I choose for the day. Still I've had a couple days where I was below 650 cals for the whole day because I didn't get in all of the LDK foods. I'm trying to get batter at making sure I get all of the LDK foods in, but it's tough some times. I guess this diet is shrinking my stomach some since just a cup of soup and 20oz of Crystal Light water leaves me feeling "stuffed".

I lost nearly 14lbs now, until Monday when I got less than 600 cals in, I think my body shut down a little and I gained .4oz so I made sure to bring my calorie intake up more on Tuesday. I worry though, if a cup of soup and a 20oz water bottle makes me feel stuffed NOW, and I am not getting a lot of calories in now, then how am I supposed to lose if I know I'll barely be able to get in half of what I am eating now?

I know bodies go into starvation mode and stop losing for a while. So, I'm anticipating I'll start this VSG surgery off with a STALL!!
Yikes! I just don't know how long it will last, but I am hoping it won't be for too long.

The upside, is that around our house I can't remember the last time we bought a CASE of pop/soda. I started Crystal Light a while back and finally got my Dh hooked. He normally had a Pepsi in his hand and now he has a water bottle filled with Crystal Light, LOL. Even the kids are into it and it's so much cheaper too. Granted we barely let the kids have pop/soda so the flavored water for them is a"fun treat". Granted Dh still gets himself a 20oz Pepsi from time to time, but he's not drinking 3-4 cans a day anymore.

At one point I tried getting him on water, but he only like "flavored" water. usually pre-flavored and the problem with that was most of those are still sugar laden. I then found us some great sparkling waters that were flavorful and carbonated. Dh really gets into those too. Those have no sugar or calories and he liked the flavor enough he stopped getting the cases of pop.

I like that this change has taken place in our house already. The kids and mom & dad are all making healthier drinking choices.

So with only 9 days away, I see the days are going to FLY by super fast now. I still go back and forth from super excited to super scared and nervous. Although I'm more excited than scared most days, but I am sure as the days move closer to "The Date" I'll become a little more anxious. I just can't believe I am in the single digits, away from my surgery date.

I've already gotten just about everything I'll need for the hospital together, based on what others have taken with them in posts here and there.

Eeeeeeeeeeee!!!! I hope I am ready.

Easter Weekend

So 4 days into this liquid diet, and i got to say starting just before a holiday is very difficult. So I am here to admit my weekend holiday cheating.

As MUCH as I wanted to do this whole thing cheat free, I found it impossible. I'm a food addict, so understand that and you can understand how one can cheat. Plus, they said the diet really count 5 days before surgery. When someone tells me that then I hear "It's okay to cheat just a little bit, just don't do it after xx/xx date."

I know so wrong of me, right?

Still, I am excusing my cheats away a little. Probably not a good thing, but oh well. I can't change it now.

Ok so my "cheats":

Friday - I had a fingernail sized bite (and it was just as thin too) of Bavarian Inn Chicken skin. We went out to eat at a restaurant and I did good with ordering the chicken broth and water, and I brought my Crystal Light along with me too. I was helping my toddler eat and that one fleck of skin somehow made it's way into my mouth. Oops.

Saturday - We celebrated Easter with the kids so candy was abundant. I had ONE mini chocolate egg (30 cals - shocking how much is in that little thing, considering a whole bottle of water with Crystal Light is only 10 cals) and 4 pieces of Reese's Pieces. That was it for the candy. And it wasn't all at once either, as if that makes it any better. Later on DH made some bacon wrapped filet mignon and steamed green beans with the left over mashed potatoes from the restaurant. It smelled sooooo delicious. So he let me have one pencil eraser sized bite of the meat, and I had literally a dab of potatoes, and a tiny green bean.

So Saturday was my hurdle day. Day 3 of the LD and day 3 of any diet is usually the worst and apparently it was for me. I wanted EVERYTHING I couldn't have. So I think I did somewhat okay for a candy laden day.

Sunday - 2 final cheats. I had one more mini chocolate egg and I also was craving a hard boiled egg. So I gave in and ate one.

However, for Sunday, the downside for me today is that I have NOT gotten in ALL of my LD foods yet. I'm behind on the soup, a protein shake and the fiber fruit drink. I'm only sitting on 630 calories for the day. So I don't feel too badly about the egg choice at the end of the day there.

So, with my appetite dwindling and me not wanting to cheat anymore and me also finding it more and more difficult to get all of the liquid diet food in, I'm wondering how the rest of the 11 days will go. I only have 6 more days with the "free food's list".

Ah crap this is going to start going by fast. Ok anxiety about the upcoming surgery has started now. Yet excitement is usually right behind that feeling. Eeeeeee! I just want this over with so nothing "bad" will happen to stop the surgery from happening.

~*~Dreams~*~

I've started having dreams about the surgery and post surgery. This is a sign that I am really fully encompassed in this whole process.

Today I took a nap and dreamt that I made it through surgery and was in very little pain. I even lifted up my shirt and took note of the incisions and stitches (although I am told it will be staples and not stitches). I was walking the halls and everything.

The only weird part was some lady was in a hospital bed, but stationed in the hall for some reason. When I walked the halls with my Dh she started making rude comments and even made one about one of my sons. I care so little for whatever she was saying to me that I flipped her the bird while walking back into my room. I was just happy to be done with surgery, be alive, and not have too much pain! I didn't care what she or anyone else had to say after that. Then Dh came in to wake me up.

Kind of a good dream, to me at least. Little pain, I was alive after surgery, and I had improved confidence! :)

That's about it. Be sure to visit my YouTube channel for my Vlogs at http://www.youtube.com/mychaoticweight

"Liquid" Diet Day (15 days & counting)

So today started the "liquid" diet. It's in quotations because they do allow some carrot sticks, cucumbers, and cauliflower if I ever feel the need to "crunch" something.

When I first made the chocolate protein shake, it was kind of nasty. To me it tasted like left over milk after eating the cereal cocoa puffs. Even had a bit of grit to it too. Since I have to drink these 3 times a day I tried letting it sit longer in the fridge to help chill it even more and that seemed to smooth it out and the chill really did help. It's tolerable now. So now I am pre-mixing the shakes and making sure I am shaking them several times a day before drinking.

The chicken noodle soup was okay as well. I think the suggestion the nutritionist gave for making it with broth was a good suggestion. It was a lot more palatable. Tomorrow I am trying the minestrone mix.

The last is the fiber fruit drink. Since it's a fruit punch I filled a whole bottle of water (20oz) added the fruit mix and also a packet of fruit punch Crystal Light. Same flavors so they meshed perfectly. I didn't feel like measuring out 1 cup of water for it.

Aside from the shakes being. . . .uh . . . tolerable (if I drink them really fast) everything else is okay.

I've been full all day and I am almost done with the fruit drink and I still have one more shake to get down. I don't know if I can get it down though. But it's mixed and waiting!

I also had my OJ with my iron, a SF jello cup, and a SF yogurt smoothie.

The good news is that I am no longer on my BP and Metformin meds.

It's going to be a difficult 2 weeks but doable.

18 days and counting . . .

I look at my calendar everyday and it seems like things are moving faster and faster towards the imminent surgery date.

I only have 2 days left of "real food". I wanted to self start a liquid diet but my doctor told me not to because it didn't work with my meds and they don't want me off them too long before surgery. I am ready to tackle the 2 week challenge. If I can do Atkins for 2 weeks without any problems then this will be just as easy. Especially since all of my food is calculated perfectly so all of the guess work is taken out of it. That makes it 100x easier. I don't know how other people do it with just a list of approved foods.

I still have a few things to buy to take with me to the hospital, still. Like the sleeping mask, sponge, mint strips, and travel sized shampoos and other toiletries.

I'm riding the roller coaster of emotions everyday. I go up and down from excited to nervous. I'm trying not to dwell on the upcoming pain and recovery of it all. I'm trying not to dwell on the fact that I'll have tubes and instruments shoved down my throat. I'm trying not to dwell on the fact that I'll have gas pain and a very dry mouth for most of the day of surgery. I'm just trying not to dwell on it.

I will say I have a name picked out for my new tummy. It's name will be "Steve the Sleeve". Many people on the OH board name their new tummies and so I named mine now. Since Stephanie is the feminine of Stephen, I figured Steve fit nicely, especially since it rhymed with sleeve, LOL.

The last thing we need to secure, is "daycare" for the kids. We have them taken care of for Thursday and Friday, but Saturday and Sunday are still up in the air. I just have to make arrangements. I wish they could visit me at the hospital, but they only allow 2 visitors at a time. We're hoping the laptop we rent will have a webcam so I can talk to them via the net. Of course that's if the hospital has internet access through wi-fi.

This waiting is intense. That's for sure. :D

The Past Few Days - Update

#1) On April 1st I have my P.A.T. - pre-admission testing; done. Blood, urine, chest x-ray, EKG, & pulmonary tests; movie- iRobot on my Zune, start to finish without interruption, (thank gawd I brought that) more paperwork done, mini meet with my PCP (their main doctor for post-operative care. I got a referral from the bariatric center to him because I wanted a bariatric friendly doctor. This worked the best because he helped facilitate the speed of me getting my surgical date.) then I went home. I did really well, if I do say so myself.

#2) April 17th is the official SP (stimulus plan) start for the company's COBRA. My payment will cover me through until July 4th. There is no longer the threat of surgical cancellation. I talked face to face with the insurance director after signing the ABN form and giving them the copy of my insurance paperwork that clears me for coverage.

The worst part was not being able to sleep for the past 4 nights, and food just made me nauseous.

#3) Today I had my Nutrition class. They went over the operation with us and what to expect, how long we'll be staying in the hospital, and more. Later they went over all of the pre-operative foods and the first 2 weeks of food. At the 2 week post-op appointment is when we'll get the post operative food list. Met 3 more sleevesters, directed them all to this site, drinkclick, and smartforme. One was going to MISS her coffee which is why I gave the drinkclick.com web-site to her.

We exchanged info so we could support each other. 2 other ladies were there getting the sleeve the same day as me. Only I get to go first at 7am. the other 2 are at 9am, and 11am. DH didn't make me feel good about it by saying, "Oh I wouldn't want to be the first one of the day. I'd rather be the second. That way they've woken up and worked the kinks out on the first, but are still awake and aware of their mistakes from the first, but not TOO tired by the third. Yeah I'd prefer being 2nd." I gave him the STFU face. Way to "help" hubby.

#4) My mom called me today. The weather is so bad out in NC that all the flights have been canceled. She ended up getting a voucher for her flight. She decided to fly out to Michigan instead for a mini weekend trip. So she gets in tomorrow and my BIL is picking her up from the airport. She'll be staying with my sister, then on Saturday she'll be driving up to visit us for half the day. So I get to see my mom because of weather complications. Although I feel bad for my brother because weather is keeping family from his graduations. It's a bitter sweet situation for me. I am proud of my brother for graduating from the Marines but I wish more of us could be there for him.

I have a new video up semi explaining my last few days. I had a few helpers and not having slept well the last few days I can barely speak straight let alone think straight. Check it out if you get a chance.