So my biggest problem lately is I haven't posted a Vlog. I have had a lot of intentions to do so but I get tired so eaily and now my glasses are broken and with moving I haven't found the time to fit a vlog in.
Needless to say I do have a blog so here it is.
I'm stuck in food porn. Smells and sights of food are so appetizing to me but alas I can't eat any or I bite and spit or depending on the food nibble and pray or puke.
Even still my tummy is still very tempramental. One try of a food and it sits well in my tummy and it was good but the next try and my tummy no longer sits well and it's up-chuck city.
Steve likes chicken and crackers and of course popsicles. I want to try blended tuna soon but I don't want to throw it up. Sherbert does well along with this strawberry lemonade frozen treat I found.
Fluids are doing much better now too thankfully. Still Steve likes colder drinks over warmer ones. Ice was my saving grace for a while.
I had an appointment last Thursday and that ended my bout with nausea for the most part. I finally got the Kapidex meds from my doc and that made a world of difference. No more reflux!! Whew!
I still dream about the day when I can eat even part of a meal without problems again. There are still many a days where I think I made a mistake but then I think it's just my head hunger. My head wants to eat more than I physically do . . .I think. Although there are days and foods I really really really want to eat, like nachos again or SUBS I really want a sub or a hot dog or a hamburger mmmm corn on the cob even. Okay maybe it is more me I don't know. I think I am just too much a foodie and now there is no turning back.
So many people keep saying that things will change and I will be able to "eat" again but I am having a very difficult time believing them just yet. I don't believe them and I suppose if I can't then it will be a blessing.
~STALL~
Yes, I am in one. I can't seem to get past 270. I've been at 270 for almost 2 weeks. I have a difficult time getting proteins in which is probably a big reason. I try but I can't seem to get enough in. :(
I'm not worried though as 270 is good right now and I can wait for this stall to be shaken.
That was very depressing. I had to go to a plus sized store and buy a $60 pair of jeans. I hate paying more than $20 for clothes if I can help it. As it is I thought I had a bunch of my left over diet clothes but I think I may have actually given them to the Salvation Army instead. Crap! I was hoping to avoid new clothes for a while. Another couple of inches and I'll be needing some new pants or shorts again.
