I am seriously tired of seeing signature lines praising the lord or god for their WLS, or their weight loss, etc etc etc. How they could have only done "it" with god on their side.
Excuse me?! Where the hell was your god when you were over 300lbs and praying for help in losing weight naturally? Where was your god when you prayed for strength to stay away from the ice cream carton, only to have eaten the whole thing 5 minutes later?
God didn't force you to eat junk food or large quanities of food, any more than he made you go and get weight loss surgery to help you stop eating so damn much!
If god really loved you in the first place, then he would have made your metabolism high enough to keep all of that extra weight off in the first place. If he loved you he wouldn't have helped steer you to the 'all you can eat' buffet while you take it as a challenge to make the place go bankrupt!
Ok I know these are some extreme examples, but so is making a decision for yourself and then working hard at doing what your doctors tell you to do, and then working hard at recovering, and going through liquid diet stages, and then eating, dumping, barfing, and then missing food, the emotional roller coaster, etc etc etc. Then finally learning how to use your tool properly and finally finding a balance to where you really start to see weight just fall of you. It melts away as you stick to your chicken and salad, sugar free, fat free, and limited carb foods. No more are you tempted by that gallon of ice cream, 44oz soda, bag of chips, or the Snickers on your co-worker's desk.
YOU and only YOU accomplished this.
I do not understand why one would go through all of that and then hand over all of the accomplishment to an invisible person who still doesn't answer your prayers. Why are you more important than any other fat person? Why hasn't god taken all of the extra food you might have eaten and given it to the starving kids in the world?!
Prayer only leads to 3 answers. Yes, No, and Wait. Either it was "answered" and you got your "wish" or you wait, and wait and wait and nothing happens, thus resulting in a "no" or you just wait indefinately, of course if it's not answered by the time you die you can assume the answer was a no. Or you wait an insane amount of time and shockingly it is answerd because your "wish" comes true. You can pray to a jug of milk and get the same results. Try it for a week and you'll see. So your prayers weren't answered when you got this surgery. You made it happen because you made a choice.
So I really hate seeing all of the "Praise god you have lost another 10 pounds with his help!" or "I couldn't have done it without gods help!" Sorry, but you did just do it without anybody's help. Be proud of YOUR accomplishments and quit handing them over to "someone" who did absolutely nothing.
But I know it makes you feel better, so I bite my tongue and stick to the status quo. If I didn't have a blog as an outlet this would annoy my husband because I'd be ranting to him about this too much, LOL
I KNOW I did this to myself. I know I've tried every diet I could with only some results and usually failures (okay they all failed - I failed all of them). The "diets" didn't work I failed at them. I failed at staying on plan and I failed at choosing the right foods. It's easy to get discouraged when weight doesn't come off the way you want it to.
I was the one who chose to have this surgery. I believe I got LUCKY when I walked into the surgeons office the DAY AFTER he started the VSG, to be the first one to ASK for the VSG. I was even more lucky to have my insurance approve the surgery without problems and to have my surgeon help push my surgery date through so I didn't have to waste time waiting and paying more into COBRA. I was a pioneer to be able to offer myself as the 2nd VSG patient for my doctor, hospital, and bariatric clinic!
I don't believe some deity did this for me, or helped me. I did this for myself. I worked HARD, damn HARD at making the right calls and paying for insurance, and working through my husband's unemployment so I could get this surgery.
I saved my life by making the right choice for me.
I worked HARD at getting through recovery which landed me in the hospital several times with nausea and vomiting and severe dehydration.
I worked HARD at eating right to be able to lose 104 pounds in 5 months! I did this! I had support from friends and family and online communities. I am so glad I made the right choice for me and I hope I can continue to keep making the right choices for me so my weight loss continues and I make my goal. But no invisible man helped me. I did this myself and I am very proud of myself and my accomplishments!
Ok . . . back to our regularly scheduled blogging. Thank you for reading or ignoring. I hope you all still like me.
Whew! I feel better!
What she said!!!
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